In any case, it's none other than another case of piling issues. Usually, a single issue isn't too much to handle but when things increase and at complicatedness too, it takes more toll than I want it to.. So there you have it, a sad me.

Part one is made up of mostly disappointed feelings. Admittedly I had much hope but for things to turn out this way. It's mostly disappointment, and also.. confusion? I just don't get how these mentalities work, they seriously don't make sense to me. Is it the single-minded thinking? The selfishness? Ultimately, is it the truth? I hope for nothing but it to be resolved in the way I hope but we all know that that is difficult to achieve. How often can one have things his way?

Part two is linked around a subject which well.. Should be obvious enough to the observant or the understanding. You can say it involves trust issues as well, along with many other unknowns though. Anyway being careful just isn't enough, some things are inevitable I guess.

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That was supposedly yesterday's post. As you can see, it's not really done (because I fell asleep halfway and as usual, woke up fuzzy-minded in the middle of the night at 3+am). Ok technically, it's the day before yesterday's post since it's technically 7 November now. Happy that mummy liked the prezzie I got for her, and she was surprised by bro's text message! Not that I was really surprised, but more of proud feelings that he made the effort :D Thank God everything's going smoothly so far for her and I sure hope she doesn't have too tough a life ahead. I am going to do my part as a filial daughter aye :D

As Weiling aptly summed it up the other day, there's just insufficient time to sort out one's life... and as PC aptly put it, there are just so many things in the mind and everything's kinda in a cluttered mess. That is how the recent days have been and the ailing memory is just not going away... Tian Ah. My assignments... (Plentiful) Research to-be-done... Ah. Talk about time management man. At least tomorrow is breather-day! :D I think I should allocate a breather-day at least weekly hmm....

... I got distracted from the post yet again. Anyway, I've realized that my class is getting increasingly vocal.. And well, that is a good sign :D Beats having a dead class with no response haha. Managed to talk with most of the class already but hmm a few more to go.. It really takes 2 hands to clap so yeah. We'll see how it goes huh.

On other random notes, I really appreciate how people take into consideration the fact that I'm a prepaid user. Stuff like "Don't reply unless xxxx" after the content in the message, it really makes a difference. The reverse holds true too though, it can get a little annoying how people send you one-liners one after another, seemingly expecting you to do the same. What was the other random note I wanted to mention hmm....

Ohohoh I remember now, the Monday kidz are really cute! :D Beginning to understand that feeling now, and it is true I guess. As a junior, the focus is more on the experience but as a senior, the focus shifts and splits such that the kidz become a part of it too. I don't think it's just me though~ Kidz will be kidz and well, babies sound kinda off don't you think? =x Aye and snig told me to go sleep when I'm tired. Shall be a good girl and be off now, tc n tata~

That is not the crux of the unhappiness, but I shall give it a miss ranting out here. Although the initial news caused me an utter state of confusion for 1 entire lecture which I am upset about as well. For a lor-sor lecturer and slides that are not all comprehensible on their own and me who couldn't catch a lot of information with all that distraction and others who didn't pay attention as well. Damn.

Somehow realized that today might actually be the break-up anniversary, but the 'might' suggests that I don't remember very clearly as well.. And the only reason I'm mentioning this is because it might actually help to console me that today is just a bad day for that. Tried to do the things that make me happy but alas... Not working at all. Over issues that I have no control over but responsibilities being the link, it may not seem coherent and even unsensible to the uninformed.

Don't feel like doing anything at all, at all.. In short and simple terms, no mood. Alas, the world outside still revolves regardless of a single soul's emotions. Of course it doesn't help to be like this, isn't that apparent enough. So stop telling me what I already know because it's not gona help. It can be frustrating. So just.

Nobody's there. tc n tata~

1. Superwoman

2. Care Group Rep?

3. School

4. Songs!

5. Ahead

1. Superwoman

And who might this precious person be...~ I'm sure some of you people among the audience should be able to guess already xD Anyway, it started with medical issues, then a spoilt iron and a shortened wire resulting in a fixed iron! I'm really amazed, and I really thank God for it too. It's like a testimony for the medical stuffs and also for the belief. Those who were with me last night should have been able to sense some distress over that piece of metal, and alas~ All's well ends well? Ok maybe not just yet, but it definitely is a good start. Ah and before I forget to disclose the identity, she's none other than my mummy :D

2. Care Group Rep?

Well as (loyal) readers, you Should know that I was the class representative last semester. Last semester. As I thought it was a matter of the past considering where we are on the calendar now, I was quite wrong, yet not completely so... Despite tutorial classes changing, guess what. Care group representatives are 1.1 / 2.1 / 3.1 's class representatives. Not like it really mattered actually, until this assignment came along. Last minutes things are just ... Ah.

Nonetheless, I did feel like it was a sudden additional burden. Like totally sudden -_- I mean, who would have expected for ex-class representatives to be doing the current semester's job..? So after loads of whining away *guilty* I found a bright side to it! It does give me a certain sense of... I don't know, happiness? To be seeing my old classmates, wave to them, get money from them, give the tickets to them, ask them how's school so far... It's kinda warm, don't you think? :D It's not that bad a job after all hahahaha. Then again, I realized something else. That nothing can change the fact that I was class representative for 2.1 of our class, and hey~ Let's go play at the beach one day after school yeah! ^___^

3. School

Well what can I say... Schooling at Sentosa? The journey there is less pleasant compared to travelling to TP, though more convenient for taking a nap xD So far I prefer TP's lecture halls.. In fact I kinda miss them =x I don't really care about coziness during lectures man. Though tutorial classroom experience has to wait till next week that is~ Ah and the canteen. Well, "canteen" that comprises of 1 slightly overpriced stall... What to expect though, it IS Sentosa after all. Nothing comes cheap. I can also assure you that approximately 8 hours worth of lectures in a day is no joke as well.

4. Songs!

I almost forgot about this one xD Let's see, the recent song that's keeping me happy.. is by Colbie Caillat. It started with Fallin' For You, then Realize and Bubbly. The former(est) is still my favourite among the others though :D Think it's the melody~~ The lyrics are, however, not related to anything that's happening in my current life though. That I assure you xD Once again, it's just the melody~~ It's somehow a happy song to me, well not that I've specifically read the lyrics but ah heck. You can try it if you haven't! xD

5. Ahead

Ok as always, what's the upcoming stuff for jt hmm... Spooktacular tomorrow followed by more bonding, and more schooldays ahead... Man. I have yet to digest all the assignments but as soon as I do, I'll be updating the Homework list on the right! Oops and I left this tab open here for quite awhile already, it's like 0021h now =x Rostering is pretty fun aye haha! And I guess with that I better be ending the post hmm.. Oh one last thing, it does help to have the agenda at the top =x Less memory failing yeah haha! Okok tc n tata~

- SA Orientation phase 2

- Trial @ school and airport

- 6-3'03 gathering at J8

- 2nd time at Pool

- Wine-tasting and hospital visit

- CYA Orientation

- CYA-mazing Race

- Discharge

- SA chalet

- Culinary uniform collection and shoe-buying

- 1st at a pub

- Release of timetable

- Bonding~

I am sad because......

- Ghostly-cute angel cover dropped while alighting the bus x((((

- Dirt-evident crabby chain officially lost its lifeline x((((

- There is STILL work to be done

- There is still MORE work to be done

- I have yet to cut my hair.

- There are many things on my mind

- The timetable is quite )(*&^#!@$

- My memory is failing me badly these days

- Group mates have yet to be found

- The holidays are almost overrrrr

I am happy because......

- CYA duty will be starting soon!

- Family matters have a brighter outlook

- I managed to read a book this holidays!

- Met up with primary school friends, and Cheryl too~

- Bonding sessions were pretty happy times

- Gained much more experiences

- Today is finally a rest day

- I am going to watch Amazing Race today!

... From the numbers, it looks like there are more sad things than happy ones? x( I am actually still upset over the loss of the first 2 points listed above. x(( It doesn't pay to be sentimental eh? On the other hand, much planning and preparations have paid off quite a bit. That brings me to the point whereby there is still work to be done. Despite it all, work seems never-ending! I guess it boils down to whether you find it a chore or joy....

Plus, I learnt that people give you different advice based on their perspectives, interpretations and experiences. It just means that you have to understand their points and find one which you agree more on. I used to think that there was a more simple way to finding answers but I guess agreeing to disagree is a greater skill now.

Things to do:

- Find out which notes need printing

- In essence, prepare for school..

- ... Progress with the workwork

- If time permits, get the hair cut!!!

- Upload photos

- ....... memory is failing once again

With that, I shall post some photos and almost end. Almost end, because the lady at King's Shoe Manufacturing was super nice. That is what service is essentially about. Anyway, I hope the umbrella goes a long way in helping other people, for one good turn deserves another! So there, school is starting already... tc n tata~

Anyway, what's with the mood yeah? Did a little hopping, made some new discoveries, got inspiration to blog~ It made me wonder how things like that even happened hmm. Maybe it's more of a should-have-known thing, but I guess who would have known yeah. Nonetheless, it is less disturbing than me not being able to find that 2 boxes of contact lenses. T_T I've searched drawers and cabinets and shelves and yet. I. still. can't find. it. no, them. Or less disturbing than that irritating bugger of a brown cockroach prowling about the darkly hidden corners of my precious kitchen. Rarh!

Speaking of which, cockroaches are really smart things aren't they? The moment the lights turn on, they go to freeze mode. I'm guessing it's more of anticipating danger and keeping their feelers crossed. Since that particular bugger strategically locates itself among my plates, bowls, eating utensils and garlic, Shieldtox is of no use. Or rather, I can't use it on those stuff, not unless I Want to suffer from indigestion and the like. So continuing about the cockroach, it stealthily makes small movements to avoid attention and the moment safe distance is in range, zoom it goes under cover. Wondering how effective that "trap" works, but better to place hope it in than have that pest living up to its skills.

Unpleasantries aside, today was a pretty happy day :D Cut out the part about me being 15min late, tasks of the day achieved~ The best part though, was the chat with mummy at home over dinner! Or rather, extended dinner :D Days like these are my favourite kind, talking to mummy about anything under the sun~ Of potential travelling, future plans, random issues from all over. :D Plus, bro's birthday was just a few days back, lovely tasting cheeeeeesecake hohoho! Hope he liked the prezzie anyway, it was the most practical thing that came to mind.. And it was the most pleasant looking one of all I saw that day too. ^____^~

Over the last few holiday-holidays, managed to finally finish up my first... Yaoi anime xD It was most interesting indeed, and the fact that it resembled Ouran Kou Kou Host Club in cuteness was all the more worthwhile~~ The only issue is that it comes across as them being acceptable / normality? Ah well. It was enjoyable while it lasted anyway :D Ohoh and updates on the latest anime season! Besides the weekly dosage of FMA(B), there's the new inclusions~! Inuyasha particuarly made me happy like yes, finally it's got a concluding season!!

Looking forward to JAMS outing although eh well, nothing's been confirmed besides the date I guess. O_o. But! The day after that is 6-3'03 gathering :D Attendance-wise I feel is quite poorly handled, but who am I to say such stuff anyway. As much as I would have liked to handle it myself, that will only cause additional stress. Sit back and relax on this once in awhile hmm... Anyway, gona post up a few random photos and I'll be done with this post aye :D tc n tata~

these 2 shots from :D

Last 2 days were filled with CYA-goodness hahaha. Photos to be uploaded at the end of this post! In case I haven't mentioned here, at least I'm beginning to like my new camera~ Not that it has particularly special functions or anything, but it's just an ordinary digital camera :D I actually thought of a name for it but~~ Quite a harvest in terms of observations so I'm quite pleased with that :D

Mummy just updated us about the issue, I don't know why but I've got a good feeling about it O_o Let's just hope it stays that way. Nothing like a today with cool weather, playing music, reading papers, eating noodles... So gona catch up on sleep the next few days!! :D And well, if i manage to find, anime episodes too~ The media players are pretty unfriendly, telling me they've got difficulties and all. Booooooooooo.

Oh yes, lunch with Cheryl on Sunday was pretty fulfilling :D Although I kinda overshot the time but hey, it was well worth it! Don't know when the next 1A03 outing will be since everybody's pretty busy... In fact, Cheryl's the only one I've been keeping most contact with O_o 2nd to that would probably be Matthew,.. then Ryan? By this stage it's pretty dry already =x Makes me wonder if Mr Mark still remembers us huh?

Hoping to be able to meet JAMS sometime the coming week! I am most free and prelims have finally ended for all of them :D Been months since we last met up hoho! Maybe I'll finally get my haircut too..!! Not that I've got a style in mind yet, but definitely not bangs please. n o. b a n g s. Why, you ask? For one, my hair is still too thin after all that layering before, hence it would result in a holey fringe. Lotsa girls have cut bangs after SSM too and no way am i going to join in that club... So yes, any other suggestions anyone? ^___^

Ah and the job is over with the welcome of October! There were pros and cons but at least we got to pick up some skills along the way yeah? :D Hope we weren't too much to handle but hey, looking forward to the money in the bank hahaha. Was told yesterday that getting a license was a costly business, I had no idea it was that expensive =/ Then again, better to get it done while we're still schooling yeah? Not too sure about plans yet, but I'm definitely rethinking them. And I've ran out of ideas on what to blog about so here go you, photos and tc n tata~

Paying attention.. Can tell who the model is? xD

Impromptu role-play -_-? Well at least I think the photo makes me look like I have long legs HAHAH~

Group photo on 1st Oct!

Group photo on 2nd Oct!

In any case, a job well done for the acting crew! And to everyone else who was involved in the performance item one way or another like the production crew! Plus the seniors who made the effort to come and the lecturers and also SP for putting up a much enjoyable performance yeah :D Despite the hiccup(s), at least it's over hoho. Citadel @ Tampines Safra Mind Cafe thereafter was pretty fun! Although it took us awhile to get the hang of it hmm.. Then again, Saboteur was a good ending to the happy hour :D

Work has been going much smoothly these days, praise the Lord! And YES vp is back :D I sometimes think I should be getting a real holiday holiday but..... Sengwei just came back from BKK too and he said there's a sort of shopping paradise. Even a guy says that.... It has been a really long time since I last went shopping =/ And an even longer time since I last bought something for myself (excluding food). China was probably the last time which is approximately... Half a year ago already. @____@

So lately, things just like to pile themselves on top of one another. Did a little site-hopping today and found the new iPod Nano to be quite interesting! Technological advances these days.... And there's the headphone thingy too. It should be some kinda trend I think, save for the steep pricing.. Ah but well, I doubt I'll be getting any soon at all haha. Money going to Culi and the rest probably leaving in the bank.

This will be the last paragraph for this post! It's currently 0431h now, starting to feel sleepy with itchy eyes. Ok maybe the brain-deadness is starting to hit me and I can't think of what else to say here hmm... I shall just upload the picture I got from Felicia (SP) haha! Afterall, it has been quite a few posts without photos already. So there, tc n tata~